tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10921267102461019192024-02-06T19:57:59.111-08:00Not all black girls want to be thick!Just your average overweight Jamaican-American trying to skinny her way into a thin world. All aboard ;)*Coco-Dreams*http://www.blogger.com/profile/11385598464813572591noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1092126710246101919.post-37431652118599236252013-03-25T22:58:00.001-07:002013-03-25T23:03:38.480-07:00Back, and Here To Stay6:46 PM My mom found my diary. For safekeeping I put most of it in code. This frustrated the shit out of her. She yelled, I yelled. So, she took my iPod.<br />
All hell broke loose.<br />
She found all of my thinspo (good thing I log out of my blog) and kept asking me "why do you think you're fat?" "Are you on a diet?" "Do we need to see the therapist?"<br />
I denied all these things but she still didn't give it back. To make matters worse, she took my phone too. And to make them even worse worse, she became a fucking food Nazi. So, to keep her off my back I started eating like I used to. And then I couldn't get enough of it. I thought, "what the hell, I don't look so bad," all the while avoiding the mirror and the scale. <br />
I knew I was getting fat and it scared the shit out of me. Finally I stepped on the scale.<br />
173.8<br />
I was so disappointed. I was so close to the 160's and I fucked it up. But now I'm back! And with a vengeance. Its Spring Break and I started today with a liquid fast. I've legit have had nothing but coffee and water. I made some peanut butter and crackers to put her off my trail, but I gave it away to one of the little kids next door. <br />
I feel more lightheaded than hungry, though I am very hungry. But I planned on going to school next Monday and WOWING everyone! Especially my ex, who sits right next to me in English class. Fucker. <br />
Plus, prom is month away. Idk if I plan on fasting the whole day, but ill try, maybe have another cup of coffee. I put fat free creamer and sugar in mine (I know it's not very Ana of me) bc I cannot handle it black. It's only 165 calories for two cups that fill me for hours, so it's cool with me!<br />
I just got on the scale : 171.2lbs<br />
Less, but still fat as fuck. I'm gonna try to get through my day. Ttyl <3<br />
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1:53AM<br />
I broke my promise and had dinner with my mom. Homemade burger with fries. It was small, and I only had a few fries. Here are my stats. As usual I over estimate everything. I doubt I've had 985 calories.<br />
I'm going to bed, whoever is reading. But tomorrow I'm posting a shitload of thinspo so get ready :) goodnight! <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQjRMZoZ-JoZ7Yj8MCGu8iHt9FKtGeQaxnmnxvqITAOrbh9emtPWdBmmShN18BRi6_PoAJSP-t4-ccyv-7_frDZr6N4b66zr34pErCpGRbqnK10oiUymWavDFNeKPgY-SSJU9Kqpv2ySE/s640/blogger-image--1453391682.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQjRMZoZ-JoZ7Yj8MCGu8iHt9FKtGeQaxnmnxvqITAOrbh9emtPWdBmmShN18BRi6_PoAJSP-t4-ccyv-7_frDZr6N4b66zr34pErCpGRbqnK10oiUymWavDFNeKPgY-SSJU9Kqpv2ySE/s640/blogger-image--1453391682.jpg" /></a></div>*Coco-Dreams*http://www.blogger.com/profile/11385598464813572591noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1092126710246101919.post-54507819654687004122013-02-16T09:13:00.001-08:002013-02-16T09:18:37.464-08:00Day 4—700 Calories8:22AM<br />
SENIOR SKIP DAY!!<br />
Lol good morning whoever is reading this! I'm feeling less worthless than usual which is good. I had like four sips of a Pepsi this morning before hopping on the city bus and heading to the mall. Im not even hungry yet. Today's stats:<br />
Height: 5'4"<br />
SW: 185lbs<br />
CW: 173???<br />
GW1: 170lbs<br />
GW2: 160lbs<br />
GW3: 150lbs<br />
GW4: 140lbs<br />
GW5: 130lbs<br />
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I think my scale is broken. Idk, I don't wanna get my feelings hurt you know? I don't want to be disappointed. Anyway, I'm at the mall and being around clothes makes me want to starve myself till I'm bones, it's great motivation for me. Hopefully that 173 was real and I can celebrate. If it is, I might be able to reach 170 by next week, which I haven't been in over a year.<br />
<br />
I do this for the flat tummy.<br />
I do this for thighs that won't spread when I sit down.<br />
I do this to prove them wrong.<br />
I do this to turn heads.<br />
I do this to feel beautiful, confident, and sexy.<br />
I do this to get back at my ex(es).<br />
I do this for a back without numerous rolls and bra fat. <br />
I do this to not envy the skinny girls. <br />
I do this for a less fat face.<br />
I do this to be small.<br />
I do this to lose weight.<br />
I do this to BE thinspo.<br />
<br />
9:40AM<br />
I forgot about what the mall also has besides clothes: THE FOOD COURT!! Lol damnit someone get me the hell out of here!!<br />
I'm trying so hard to resist. I keep telling myself that I don't have enough anyway. But I do have enough for a Mrs. Fields cookie....<br />
NO! NOT THIS TIME! I WILL NOT GIVE IN! I WILL BE THINSPO!!<br />
<br />
11:59AM<br />
I resisted temptation!! I even didn't get these peanut MnMs that were calling my name! I feel so proud! Lets see how long this proudness lasts when I get home lol. HOPEFULLY I'll only eat an apple with peanut butter and some coffee. Thats only 405 calories!<br />
Ugh, I have to take out my weave today...<br />
<br />
2:51PM<br />
I can feel it. My body running on fumes. My hands and legs shaking and my head pounding. Even though I'm dizzy, it almost feels like I'm high, on cloud 9.<br />
Maybe even 10.<br />
I'm on my way back home, waiting for the bus. Ttyl <3<br />
<br />
11:39PM<br />
I ate some of what my mom cooked. I'm not even gonna dwell on it, I'm just proud I went the whole day. Wow. <br />
Fuck the intake. <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8jBv0nXJoV0Vzm1alCSdd9CaMErf2OEeEIIB_GMe3eeJJYqEBEH6tcdfZPVuhnm4Wvw47SypeTMmIMRFmSki1fMBnVpP0tVPWBweRqt7FGMxhL11jBCoec-QbMZkSDaKVYQuECWxsc24/s640/blogger-image--1672828796.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi8jBv0nXJoV0Vzm1alCSdd9CaMErf2OEeEIIB_GMe3eeJJYqEBEH6tcdfZPVuhnm4Wvw47SypeTMmIMRFmSki1fMBnVpP0tVPWBweRqt7FGMxhL11jBCoec-QbMZkSDaKVYQuECWxsc24/s640/blogger-image--1672828796.jpg" /></a></div>*Coco-Dreams*http://www.blogger.com/profile/11385598464813572591noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1092126710246101919.post-28746253358469459382013-02-14T20:23:00.001-08:002013-02-14T20:37:10.634-08:00Day 3—600 Calories7:02AM<br />
I missed the bus. A car was speeding down the intersection and coming towards me so I turned around to run and twisted my ankle :( <br />
<br />
On a less deadly note, I woke up and the scale greeted me with 174lbs!! I honestly think there's something wrong with it bc how could it be?? I'm so close to my first goal I can't wait to actually get there. I'll be 15lbs lighter. 15lbs of pain, loneliness, low self esteem, and most of all disgusting FA T!!<br />
<br />
I'm praying I don't eat.<br />
Please body, don't binge.<br />
Be strong. Be thin. Be beautiful. <br />
<br />
9:30AM<br />
My prayer didn't work. <br />
My mom was super suspicious and made me eat a breakfast croissant, even though I told her I already had a coffee! I was so mad! I hate when she controls me dammit I'm almost grown! <br />
<br />
ANYWAY, so I came to school pissed tf off, late and FAT. AND THEN my best friend got me chocolate for V-Day, and my other best friend got me a Lolly pop.<br />
Coffee--125<br />
Breakfast sandwhich--380<br />
Hershey bar--260<br />
Lollipop--100 (exaggerated)<br />
TOTAL--865<br />
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I hate myself. I couldn't stop. I couldnt say no. I keep reminding myself of the body I want, but it doesn't stop me. There's a skinny girl inside me. She's so thin and all the guys want her. She's fit and her flat stomach makes guys swoon. The girls she used to envy now flock to her.<br />
She is beautiful. Unlike Fat Ugly Me. Restricting takes self control and I seem to not have any. How can I go through life with out self control?? I will fail.<br />
I am a failure.<br />
<br />
I think I need to plan my meals. Because what am I gonna do for day 10 which is 300 calories?? When I get home I'm chugging water and fasting. Because I can't keep doing this. Every bite is failure! Every bite is a fat roll. Every bite pulls me farther from perfection.<br />
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12:52PM<br />
Cake, cupcakes, brownies. Happy Valentines Day -__- <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-Y1x4HC2_MOY/UR24yT89DdI/AAAAAAAAASo/M7W4XkTwBzQ/s640/blogger-image-1964429104.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-Y1x4HC2_MOY/UR24yT89DdI/AAAAAAAAASo/M7W4XkTwBzQ/s640/blogger-image-1964429104.jpg" /></a></div> <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcsf0lztIMFNxLh3yBjqxA_zRbnpZlmGaYwO3OAurc19THLqZ7eluszFWuuzW0TcSWqA3LEHs-Wz376gilq0KjfO7NopEheLADishce1rwJmXOtccLNKOz87jKNqAeBYUOyrGBPT07TnU/s640/blogger-image--1687482764.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcsf0lztIMFNxLh3yBjqxA_zRbnpZlmGaYwO3OAurc19THLqZ7eluszFWuuzW0TcSWqA3LEHs-Wz376gilq0KjfO7NopEheLADishce1rwJmXOtccLNKOz87jKNqAeBYUOyrGBPT07TnU/s640/blogger-image--1687482764.jpg" /></a></div> <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-msWWckJjbVc/UR26XcVae9I/AAAAAAAAAS8/ZkPRqBqkMtY/s640/blogger-image--414975408.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-msWWckJjbVc/UR26XcVae9I/AAAAAAAAAS8/ZkPRqBqkMtY/s640/blogger-image--414975408.jpg" /></a></div> <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-HnXHZgb_EK4/UR26fp4c-1I/AAAAAAAAATE/GtL4ZduHvZ8/s640/blogger-image--1872267671.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh4.googleusercontent.com/-HnXHZgb_EK4/UR26fp4c-1I/AAAAAAAAATE/GtL4ZduHvZ8/s640/blogger-image--1872267671.jpg" /></a></div> <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-DCDv23wn4Ug/UR27QdysVSI/AAAAAAAAATg/DI3N-zDbqPg/s640/blogger-image--2037201985.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-DCDv23wn4Ug/UR27QdysVSI/AAAAAAAAATg/DI3N-zDbqPg/s640/blogger-image--2037201985.jpg" /></a></div>*Coco-Dreams*http://www.blogger.com/profile/11385598464813572591noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1092126710246101919.post-74012372574840740622013-02-13T17:10:00.001-08:002013-02-13T17:27:04.252-08:00Day 2—800 Calories6:22AM<br />
I woke up this morning and the scale said 171lbs<br />
What....the hell.?<br />
Yesterday when I was cleaning my room I dropped it. So maybe it's broken :( NOOOOOOO!!<br />
We have another one in the bathroom and it says I'm 176.2lbs, so I'm goin with that. <br />
<br />
Today I plan on not eating whatsoever until I get home. I wanna save those calories for my moms cooking, which is too good!<br />
<br />
Let's see how the day goes!<br />
<br />
7:10PM<br />
I came home and weighed 174.6 so idk what's goin on!<br />
<br />
Here's my intake:<br />
Peanut MnMs--250<br />
Tiny nibble of chicken--20 <br />
Ginger ale--90<br />
Coffee--110<br />
Crab legs--400<br />
Philly CheeseSteak--500<br />
Extraneous--200<br />
Total--1570<br />
<br />
SW: 185lbs<br />
CW: 176<br />
GW1: 170lbs<br />
GW2: 160lbs<br />
GW3: 150lbs<br />
GW4: 140lbs<br />
GW5: 130lbs<br />
<br />
Now, the only things I'm COMPLETELY sure about are the MnMs, coffee and the ginger ale. Other than those definite 450 calories I'm just guessing exaggeratedly. But I honestly think I went at least to 1000 Cals, which sucks so bad. Like, why can't my fat ass just not eat?? Why can't I say no?? <br />
You know what tomorrow I am not having it I'm gonna be UNDER my calorie goal no matter what it takes!! And that's a promise!!<br />
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Ugh, okay I'm done ranting. Thinspo? I think yes! <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglWHhX6QLr6c12zoMnDz-DUgx53_YE17oP-Kuhe7EnzedEflzGGIJXuK1caRCFCIj1mS1Il3JXI3XHJkkBExp98y4mHbEPafpZkCIqexiF48qQqowgNQ-5yK8PH6a5j0x3nE9vqMEHB_s/s640/blogger-image-79908620.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEglWHhX6QLr6c12zoMnDz-DUgx53_YE17oP-Kuhe7EnzedEflzGGIJXuK1caRCFCIj1mS1Il3JXI3XHJkkBExp98y4mHbEPafpZkCIqexiF48qQqowgNQ-5yK8PH6a5j0x3nE9vqMEHB_s/s640/blogger-image-79908620.jpg" /></a></div> <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-bVm9yelC1vk/URw7VZWr0ZI/AAAAAAAAAQc/jiKUxobisGQ/s640/blogger-image--1981356480.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://lh5.googleusercontent.com/-bVm9yelC1vk/URw7VZWr0ZI/AAAAAAAAAQc/jiKUxobisGQ/s640/blogger-image--1981356480.jpg" /></a></div> <br/><br/><div class="separator"style="clear: both; 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It's only 9:30 AM but I had this school lunch juice box thingy and I have no idea how many calories it was so let's say 100 just to be safe. I plan on eating this candy bar my sister bought me, even though I know I shouldn't. But nothing until I get home. <br />
<br />
SW: 185lbs<br />
CW: 177.6 (as always, damnit!)<br />
GW1: 170lbs<br />
GW2: 160lbs<br />
GW3: 150lbs<br />
GW4: 140lbs<br />
GW5: 130lbs<br />
<br />
9:38AM, this is my intake<br />
Grape juice thingy--100<br />
3/4 Hershey's Milk Chocolate--160<br />
Total (temporary)--260<br />
<br />
My goal is to be 173 by next week Saturday because my school is having this rave thingy and I wanna be HOT! So I'm gonna start working out forrealz this time lol<br />
I literally sit around and fantasize about how I'd look when I get to my goal. Other thinspo addicts want bones but I just want flat. I'm not striving to look skeletal, I'm striving for a smooth body without rolls or bra over hang or flab. I don't want my thighs to touch but I don't want a huge gap. I don't care if my hip ones show as long as I don't have a muffin top whatsoever. <br />
THIS is the body I want!<br />
Just smooth and flat all over. Well, not all over lol. <br />
<br />
12:47PM<br />
Still haven't eaten anything yet. Yay!<br />
I have senior priveledge so I go home 7th period. When I get there:<br />
1. Clean<br />
2. Laundry<br />
3. Write a little of my Senior Paper<br />
4. Get my uniform ready<br />
<br />
And then I won't eat except for 5 bites of what my mom makes for dinner, coffee, and a fruit. I'll update later, with some THINSPO of course!<br />
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4:59PM<br />
Well my plan didn't go so well...<br />
Pork Cracklings--70<br />
Coffee w/cream&sugar--110<br />
Candy--190<br />
Sandwhich my mom made--500 (just guessing) <br />
<br />
Well when it gets darker I'm going on a 30min walk and then 40min cardio/strength. I'll post of pic of my exercise regiment.<br />
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I'll be back later!<br />
10:03PM<br />
Bc of my stubborn mother the walking thing didn't work out. But I'm gonna do this <br />
<br />
When I'm done with this post.<br />
Crab leg--200<br />
Little bites of random things-- 200<br />
Yeah. Shitty, I know. <br />
<br />
GRAND TOTAL!<br />
1530 :( <br />
Well, I did extremely round up, but I'd rather be safe than sorry. I'm not eating AT ALL in school tomorrow. I need to save those calories!<br />
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Throughout this whole mess I have not paid any attention to my weight. Some days I would binge, others I would be too depressed to eat. But amazingly I've managed to stay at 179.4 Fatass. <br />
The only reason I've decided to get my ass up and do something about it is because I realized that many of the guys I have crushes on tend to keep skinny girlfriends and dates. So, maybe the reason why they never wanted to go out but still flirted with me was because my personality was great enough to flirt with but not enough to ask out. But I'm not changing myself to get guys it's just the principle of the fact that my weight is hindering me in that area. Also, it would help if I were a little more confident. In the wake of a skinny girl, I find myself embarrassed to be around her. <br />
I want this so bad but the universe is throwing me some tough obstacles. I don't want this body. I don't particularly hate it, but I would trade it for a smaller one in a millisecond. I decided that instead of trying to fast all day I should fast for a certain amount of hours and gradually move down. So now I only eat (healthily) from 7am to 2pm, after which I fast until 7am eat until 2 ect,. And ABSOLUTLY NO junk food or soda. Just water, tea, and black coffee (blek)!!<br />
And to throw in a little extra, I will be doing all of this while attempting the infamous ABC Diet, a softer version though. If it works out I will do the original ABC Diet. <br />
Okay here's the softie version of ABC diet:<br />
Day 1: 800 calories (or less)<br />
Day 2: 800 calories (or less)<br />
Day 3: 600 calories<br />
Day 4: 700 calories<br />
Day 5: 400 calories<br />
Day 6: 500 calories<br />
Day 7: 600 calories<br />
Day 8: 700 calories<br />
Day 9: 800 calories<br />
Day 10: 300 calories<br />
Day 11: 450 calories<br />
Day 12: 500 calories<br />
Day 13: 700 calories<br />
Day 14: 650 calories<br />
Day 15: 550 calories<br />
Day 16: 500 calories<br />
Day 17: 300 calories<br />
Day 18: 500 calories<br />
Day 19: 400 calories<br />
Day 20: 300 calories<br />
Day 21: 600 calories<br />
Day 22: 550 calories<br />
Day 23: 500 calories<br />
Day 24: 450 calories<br />
Day 25: 400 calories<br />
Day 26: 350 calories<br />
Day 27: 400 calories<br />
Day 28: 500 calories<br />
Day 29: 500 calories<br />
Day 30: 600 calories<br />
Day 31: 1100 calories<br />
Day 32: 300 calories<br />
Day 33: 550 calories<br />
Day 34: 650 calories<br />
Day 35: 750 calories<br />
Day 36: 300 calories<br />
Day 37: 800 calories<br />
Day 38: 750 calories<br />
Day 39: 700 calories<br />
Day 40: 650 calories<br />
Day 41: 600 calories<br />
Day 42: 550 calories<br />
Day 43: 500 calories<br />
Day 44: 500 calories<br />
Day 45: 550 calories<br />
Day 46: 500 calories<br />
Day 47: 600 calories<br />
Day 48: 500 calories<br />
Day 49: 450 calories<br />
Day 50: 300 calories <br />
Okay, enough with the heavy shit, here's some real black girl thinspiration for ya ;)<br />
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And as you can see from my blog title, Not All Black Girls Wanna Be Thick, so there are some thin ones out there trust me!</p><p>Seeing real girls somewhat similar to you is helpful, but there is not one Ana/Mia/ED that doesn't have that one girl they see on a regular basis that they look up to.<br />
You know the girl I'm talking about.<br />
The girl that has the body you dream you had, that makes you want to work out and diet and eat laxatives till you puke. You almost want to be her, she is your Ultimate Thinspo. </p><p>Well, there's a girl like that for me, let's call her T. Shes gorgeous and fashionable and super popular. Everyone in my city knows her name. She has a great car, great hair/skin/nails, and shes a model, but the thing I admire the most is her body type, which I wish I could have :( she's so lucky, the guys at my school literally <b><i>swoon </i></b>over her. I never go so far as to wish I <b><i>was </i></b>her, but I Damn sure wish I had her flat stomach and smooth back. I've been cursed with disgusting back fat, and it's not like my stomach is<b><i> sooo </i></b>big, it's really the back rolls that make me look so fucking nasty, like I could reach behind me a pinch the rolls, I've counted and there's five. I'll post a pick later so you see I'm not exaggerating.<br />
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There's another girl too her name is Jasmine, she would be my Ultimate Thinspo because her body is 10x better, but I've never seen her in person only pics so I've never had the full "Wow" affect. I'll post pics of her later. <br />
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I'm such a failure....</p><p>Christmas break came around, and I had planned to lose massive amounts of weight so I could go back to school and wow people. But, my grandad came down from North Carolina. And it's not that I don't absolutely LOVE him, I mean he's been more of a father than my father has ever been, but he cooks that true grandmas house down in the backwater country food. I feel so fucking fat!!</p><p>And ANY person that is obsessed about their weight will tell you that when they eat really bad they avoid the scale like the ugly guy that's been in love with you since kindergarten. </p><p>Since the break started I've been piling this disgusting fat filled food down my gullet, and I mean DISGUSTING: cookies, cakes, pies, fried foods, pizza, ice cream, candy, mayo based salads, greasy food, fast food, soda, soda, and more fucking SODA!! And I felt so guilty that I didn't step on the scale not once.</p><p>Until just now.</p><p>My breath completely stopped in my chest. How could i? How could I just give up on my dream? How could I just throw it all away???</p><p>179.2 lbs. </p><p>I promise if it would have said 180 I would dropped dead right there. </p><p>So, I'm saying right here and right now, that I am changing. Tomorrow its nothing but fruit and water and coffee (courtesy of my new coffee maker—thanks mom!!) and this 40 minute workout that I'll post tomorrow. I can't be fat anymore I don't want to be the "fat friend" I want my boyfriend to pick me up, I want to feel sexy when I'm naked, I want to go back to school on the 8th and have people come up to me and say, "have you lost weight?" I want my ex to feel like shit, I want guys to notice me just so I can say I have a bf, I want to show my stomach and wear cropped tops, I want my jelly thighs to stop rubbing together, I want to feel confident in WHATEVER I wear, I want to be small, tiny, thin, light, little, I WANT TO BE SKINNY!!</p><p>*breathe..*</p><p>Okay, I'm gonna stop ranting and raving and give you guys some well deserved thinspo, One of the things I'd love to wear when I'm smaller:<br />
CORSET TOPS THINSPO!!</p><div class='separator' style='clear: both; text-align: center;'> <a href='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg8W8SwWhv3LuwQhWYSIQ5pP7iGZpI_EtTrfXReGzg_ROiCTDKxMvUpSJr6Z2uffYHsNdPlneWj0ZFDzbpxIFDhLi3ErrUrO51-4SpKTE56UmvHl7xZculX6ZfD1-rAIZutoCJmSRZ12BI/s1600/DC-DAISY-1617T.jpeg' imageanchor='1' style='margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;'> <img border='0' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg8W8SwWhv3LuwQhWYSIQ5pP7iGZpI_EtTrfXReGzg_ROiCTDKxMvUpSJr6Z2uffYHsNdPlneWj0ZFDzbpxIFDhLi3ErrUrO51-4SpKTE56UmvHl7xZculX6ZfD1-rAIZutoCJmSRZ12BI/s640/DC-DAISY-1617T.jpeg' /> </a> </div><div class='separator' style='clear: both; text-align: center;'> <a href='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwTgtrbBVuRDnLouerGHGC-cxqYj-c1MfnvWryfSRZILVRHZamNhUk4QDPZlcWVrEqSgggEV5NJEMotxbG79xz41azvdt0n0j5HByrkqotgEH9RrgTzTwn34jeZ48L-oyzzjc8QdPS8w0/s1600/535575364_o-1.jpeg' imageanchor='1' style='margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;'> <img border='0' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwTgtrbBVuRDnLouerGHGC-cxqYj-c1MfnvWryfSRZILVRHZamNhUk4QDPZlcWVrEqSgggEV5NJEMotxbG79xz41azvdt0n0j5HByrkqotgEH9RrgTzTwn34jeZ48L-oyzzjc8QdPS8w0/s640/535575364_o-1.jpeg' /> </a> </div><div class='separator' style='clear: both; 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And then my mom took it away because I forgot to wash the dishes one night, so I've been AWOL to the outside world. To be completely honest my diet has went to shits! I have been trying to eat right, but without thinspo or my blog i've been lost. Luckily, I've only gained about one pound. </p>
<p>                 CW: 177.6 lbs<br>
           1st GW: 150 lbs<br>
         2nd GW: 140 lbs<br>
              UGW: 135 lbs</p>
<p>I hate that I cant stay away from food. I hate that my mom is constantly asking me to bake things, or make dinner which means I have to taste it which ultimately means im gonna eat it! </p>
<p>Sorry im being such a Debbie Downer, but it really is hard. I find myself looking at the tiny girls at my school with a perspective thats almost envious. I would look at them with longing of the great bodies they had but never envy or jealousy! I think I want this so bad its becoming a problem, I dont want an ED but I'll gladly take one if that means I'll lose weight. If anyone has a problem with that then click the little red "X" at the top of the window and move on.</p>
<p>On another note, I think im going to start walking after school for an hour everyday, its really the only option I have as far as exercise since my dad stole my Wii. </p>
<p>Another story for another day.</p>
<p>Tomorrow my little sister is turning five so theres gonna be a huge party with lots of food and cake :( I'll be sure to let you know how that goes because I really will try to resist temptation, because<b><i> nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.</i></b> </p>
<p>Anyway, here's some Thinspo: Anna Faris!<br>
Some of the pics are kinda explicit so viewer discretion is advised :)<br>
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<p> Im getting sleepy so I'll head off to bed, have a great night :) </p>
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It read a whopping 180! My jaw dropped. I couldnt believe it, I gained 3 pounds??? I walked around the whole day guzzling on water like I was in a damn desert. I broke the fast and had a Caesar salad and two Brownies.<br>
After my shower I stepped on the scale and was amazed once again to see the scale read 177.2 I thought the scale was broken until I realized my dumbass had on a bunch of clothes and my shoes and socks when I first weighed myself, so I basically broke the fast for Nothing -__-<br>
I went to bed around nine, and when I woke up I weighed myself again. So here are the stats:</p>
<p>                     CW: 176.4<br>
               1st GW: 150<br>
              2nd GW: 140<br>
                   UGW: 135</p>
<p>I have a full bottle of water and a 110 calorie bag of corn flakes lol that's like the only healthy snack in my house. Before I end this post, I just wanna share the main reasons Why I want to lose weight.<br>
1. PROM—Who wants to look like a fat cow on one the most important nights of their life??<br>
2. CONFIDENCE—I want to turn heads, I want to wake up in the morning and know that I'm gorgeous and that No matter what I'll never forget it!<br>
3. MY EX—When we broke up he called me a fat bitch over and over again. I can't wait to lose weight and Watch him eat his decrepit heart out..hehe <br>
3. CLOTHES—You notice how all the cute shit is for the skinny girls?? Yeah. I want to wear skin tight dresses and short shorts and most of all, CROP TOPS!<br>
4. NAKED—I'm not a promiscuous girl, but I'm No virgin either. I want to be able to bear all and not be shy about it. Worrying about a fat roll really takes the fun out of sex!<br>
5. HEALTH—When you get a chance find out what the healthy weight is for someone your height. I find out I should be at the Max 150 pounds. I'm 5'4. I don't want to be the maximum, I'm striving for less.</p>
<p>There are more reasons but those are the top 5. <br>
Stay beautiful <3</p>
*Coco-Dreams*http://www.blogger.com/profile/11385598464813572591noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1092126710246101919.post-18936884335874212912012-11-26T17:18:00.001-08:002012-11-26T17:19:05.491-08:00Off to a rough start cont.<p>I thought I could handle the pressure, but I cracked. I walked into the kitchen and ran smack dab into a plate of Brownies. I had one, and a gummy, one starburst, and a fun size pack of skittles. <br>
Oh but that's not the worst part.<br>
At the doctors office my baby sisters were complaining that they were hungry, so my mom left and brought back CHECKERS! Ugh! She got me my favorite—the chicken bites box! </p>
<p>I only ate half of it, feeling like a slob. And she offered a bite of her Bacon Burger. I took like..four. <br>
When I got home, the Brownies assaulted me again. I'm so ashamed. I ate like a total fatass Today. If I step on the scale and find myself anywhere in the 180's I'll cry.</p>
<p>I decided to keep my water bottle full at all times, so I can do my first water fast tomorrow. I pray it wont be too hard, I'll keep telling myself that it's just one day. It's just food for pickles sake! Not air! I hope it goes well!</p>
<p><3 Goodnight lovez </p>
*Coco-Dreams*http://www.blogger.com/profile/11385598464813572591noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1092126710246101919.post-24518119636514063712012-11-26T08:35:00.001-08:002012-11-26T08:38:24.467-08:00Off to a rough start<p>So Sunday I was supposed to only eat 500 calories but that didn't go so well. My mom wanted me to cook this extravagant breakfast with homemade pancakes, Bacon, scrambled eggs, and sausages. Let's just round that off to one or two BAGILLION calories. Yeah. </p>
<p>And THEN I ate leftovers from Thanksgiving. And THEN I made the most delicious moist mouthwatering Brownies. I looooove to bake and cook, but mostly bake lol. </p>
<p>                CW: 179.8</p>
<p>Not as bad as I thought. Right now I'm just relieved that I'm finally in the 70's. Now if we could just zoom to the 60's that would be great! </p>
<p>I woke up this morning with a belly ache (I have chronic digestive issues) and determination to not go over 500. My mom wanted Dunkin' Donuts. Sigh. So here it is:</p>
<p>Small French vanilla coffee w/Milk and sugar: 140<br>
Chocolate glazed donut: 370</p>
<p>I had No idea a donut had so many calories!</p>
<p>My family nickname is Piggy, I've been called that since I was a wee babe, still is till this day. So I call that voice inside my head that makes me wanna eat more Piggy. She's such a bossy bitch.<br>
Anyway, I'm thinking about dancing again, I took a break for medical issues I don't wish to disclose, but it's a good way to burn calories!</p>
<p>            THINSPO TIIIIIME! <br>
                Motivational </p>
<p>I will try my hardest to not eat for the rest of the day. Just water. I hate tea lol I really do, but Maybe I'll choke it down. If it gets too bad, I'll have an orange or some celery. </p>
<p>Let's do this >_< </p>
<p><3 see ya!</p>
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<p>First things first this blog is to motivate me and Hopefully motivate others. I know I posted that I was 183 but I weighed myself this morning and (finally) I'm 178.7 lbs. Then again it was in the morning...but I haven't seen it in the 70's in a year! I really hate my body :( but I'm going to change it! I'll try every diet to get where I want to be!</p>
<p>                 CW: 179<br>
          1st  GW: 150 <br>
          2nd GW: 140<br>
              UGW:  135</p>
<p>On most ProAna /Thinspo blogs the girls are going for 115lbs or less, but I'm 179 and look 150 (I think it's my breasts that hold most of the weight lol—I'm a DD!) So I'm going to see how I look at 135lbs and if it's not good enough I'll just keep going. </p>
<p>Tomorrow I'm gonna start things off nice and easy with 500cals a day for a week, and try some other diets a long the way. We can't afford exercise equipment, my mom thinks gym memberships take your money, and there aren't and free ones around here so all I have is my body and some sneakers :) </p>
<p>I'll post thinspo pics of course but I do not own any of them and if you don't want your picture up kindly tell me and I'll take them down ASAP :) </p>
<p>Enough talk, thinspo time! </p>
<p>I love all types, Celebrity, model, black, white, real girl, emo/scene, and before/afters! </p>
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The last time I weighed myself I was 183lbs..<br />
I was hoping that by blogging I would have more motivation, especially when it comes to tracking my progress and recording my calories. And posting a lot of thinspo :)<br />
I live in Florida, home of half naked skinny girls! With my mom and my two little sisters. This is just an introduction, but I'll definitely be back with a more in-depth description and photos of me ^_^ peace !*Coco-Dreams*http://www.blogger.com/profile/11385598464813572591noreply@blogger.com0